Not in this life

Para quienes no lo saben, Nine Inch Nails es mi banda favorita. Siempre he admirado la capacidad de Trent Reznor para mostrar, según lo entiendo yo, una belleza incomparable, pero extraída de todo aquello que es visceral, desgarrador e incluso transgresor. En general, creo que lo que escribo no se parece nada a lo suyo, tal vez porque lo suyo es demasiado explícito. Sin embargo, creo que si he sido muy influenciado por las letras mas melancólicas que ha hecho. En particular debo aceptar que la siguiente está influenciada por la letra de una canción de NIN llamada "And all that could have been", una de mis favoritas. (No confundirla con la cancion llamada "The great below", que incluye las palabras que dan título a "And all that..."). Debo haberla escrito hace unos 5 meses, y es, bueno, triste...

Not in this life.

This is the last stop
Left everything behind me
An effort not to look back
What else can I do now?

The moment I got off
That sudden fear of loss
I wish you didn’t come
And see what I’ve become (but you’re never gone)

And nights seem so much longer
My mind’s been torn asunder

Leave me here
And don’t come back
You only bring back memories
Of my unfulfilled plans
Because you never wanted
To finish what you started
And it’s tearing me away
These thoughts I couldn’t tell
Even if I wanted you to stay
We’d just go back to the same old place

All the bliss
All these things I need
Not in this life

Leave me here
And never come back
You only pick up my pieces
To spread them further apart
Because you got me started
And then you brought disaster
And it’s eating me away
These words I couldn’t say
Even if it all just fades away
The thought of you would still remain.